Just fucked up. Awww...shit!

I wanna get so tired. So physically tired that my body aches from head to toe. So tired that I would feel nothing else but exhaustion. Physical exhaustion would numb me from all my emotional pain.. It would keep my mind from thinking.

As I once read, it's the thinking that brings the suffering. It's the thinking over and over again that causes mental torment. But how can I stop thinking when that is all I can do.

You know what hurts the most?

What?

When you can't fight for the one thing that would make you happy.