Monday, December 13, 2004

Wiser? or just Older?

I turn 23 today. Darn I'm old! I don't really want to leave age 22. Its one of my favorite numbers and it has been a perfect year for me, well... almost.

I heard somewhere that you should choose your favorite age and you could just stay in that age forever, I believe this is from Sex and the City, again. (What can I say... the show has greatly influenced my life.) So when people ask me how old I am today, I would say, "Today, I'm celebrating my 22nd birthday Part 2". And so next year will be the 3rd part of my 22nd birthday celebration, and so on...

The message that the priest gave us, before he prayed for my grandmother, was about letting go. He gave an analogy about women being afraid to get old and clinging to their youth that's why they're never happy. They risk going under the knife and availing whatever treatments they can afford just to preserve themselves. (As if someone told them they're already nearing extinction.) Of course the message was for us to grieve then learn to let go and move on. The life clock continues to tick, and therefore life must go on. The secret to life's happiness, as what I've understood from that simple analogy, is learning to leave the past behind and embracing the future. And same thing goes for a woman and her beauty.

I'm not afraid of getting wrinkles, varicose veins, and all those other signs of aging... yet. Hopefully, when the time comes that I have to worry about them, I could already afford those cosmetic procedures. Haha! Right now, its scarier to think that I'm a year older and yet still the same person I was a year ago.

Last year, I promised myself to try everything, well at least once, and to do just whatever I want to do. Just go for whatever I feel like doing at that moment. I will only live once. And so, I told myself, that later in life I won't have any regrets. This year I did a lot of things I've never done before and....I've never been happier.

Maybe this is another key to happiness...seize the day and cherish every moment of it.

I guess I'm wiser, after all.

Yeah right....